Empty

Written on October 4th, 2010, 01:00 am

Empty

Late at night

Can't hear a sound from outside

All alone with my own thoughts

Nowhere to go to or someone to run to

Each day's a brand new day

But my pain remains from yesterday

Lonely is not the consequence

No one to talk to or somewhere to escape to

When you feel empty and your world is crumbling down

When all you want is to lie down and cry

If all you want is the sun to stop shining so bright up in the sky

You see no light at the end of the tunnel

Darkness is your only friend and confident

Ease yourself off

And put yourself together

There's only one way out

Have a thought over it

That's the only way out

Loneliness is the cure

Written within this week...

Loneliness is the cure

Here all by myself, crying

To this lonesome song I'm listening

And the cold rain I'm watching,

From the dark sky it's coming

The lonely raindrops falling

Like my lonely teardrops calling

For you I will always be waiting

In this lonely, dark night sky that’s fading

Lonely stars were shining,

On the outer space they're dying

Our love's said goodbye, it's leaving,

For no longer my heart is beating

This lonely heart of mine,

Wishing everything it could forget,

Has a big sip of Oporto wine

So, deep in my mind, lost I could get

But there comes the dawn again

And the sun is not just a stain

I’m waiting for the plane to Spain

Cause I can’t be forever inside this den

That feeling is still around

Although pain can no longer be found

I am lying on the ground

While the rain keeps on falling down

I've found the cure for my disease

And the ache I thought would never cease

Is now buried in my heart's backyard,

Where I hold my memories graveyard

My elixir is my loneliness

For my life will now be loveless

I hope God you He’ll bless

Cause for you I only left a mess

Hurt

Written on Sept 10th, 2009

Hurt

Trying to get over you

Trying to forget you

Knowing I can never do such thing

'Cause you have been the best part of me

You have been my power to go on through life

And just now I realise how can I be so weak

You can't change what have been built for so long

So I'll just carry on being how I am

All the good things that we went through

They could never be good enough

'Cause distance would never allow us

To have our happily ever after

But I will never give you up

I'll be forever by your side

Always be yours

Till the end of time

And you will forever be my sweetheart

No matter what is said or done

For you will always beat my heart

For that my reason is already gone

Confessions of a hollow heart

Written on July 6th, 2009

Confessions of a hollow heart

Loneliness
Hollowness
My heart aches
What was once a sea of roses
Now seems to be a blackhole

Why is that happening?
Everything was so perfect
What is going on?
Please let me know

They say even diamonds start as coal
Nothing lasts forever
Nothing's perfect all the time
Why? I can't help but hate it all

I wish I could understand
I wish I could read your mind
I wish I could control my own mind and heart
Instead of letting it control me
But I can't
And I don't know why

When will this nightmare end?
I want to wake up
But it seems so hard
I want to let go of
All the bad things life brings up to us
But it is so difficult
Will love tear us apart?

You've been my strength for all this time
My happiness in the darkest of nights
And I still can't understand why
Why have we been so far apart

Five senses

This is something I wrote for my girl's birthday today, May 12th, 2009.

J, this is for you, with all my heart. I hope you like it.

Five senses

As sweet as the sap of the tree
As deep as the deepest hole in the world
As bitter and pretty as the sea
But still I can't say the word

This non-stop music that plays in my head
I know it comes from the depths of my heart
Have I been dreaming in my bed
Or have I stopped in time from the start

In the darkness of the night
I see only one star shining
And when the day brings out the light
I know it is you who's smiling

Why can't it be touched
If I can feel it clearly
If it can't be reached
How can I say it truly

A sweet scent
That makes Heaven descend
Never loses its smell
And will never bring out Hell

A feeling of happiness
Sometimes turns into sadness
And anger will never
Make me leave you forever

Okay, I now dare to say
I think it is love
For it's not enough
That only my mind I can obey

For you

Written on Nov 26th, 2008

For you

Your sweet way of being
Your simple way of living
It makes me go crazy for you
I hope you know it's true

Maybe you don't know
How much you mean to me
But if you need anything
I will always be here

If I lose control of me
I find myself in thee
If all I see is darkness
You bring me to Paradise
And I find myself again

I just want you to realise
How precious you are to me
And that everything I do
Dear, I do it for you

Thank you for showing
Me the way to the light
Thank you for fishing
This non-slippery fish

Since I first met you
I knew you were special
It was love at first sight
Somehow

All you are

Written on Dec 27th, 2008

All you are

You are the sun
that warms my soul
and lights my day
The angel
that protects me from harm
and guides my way
The strengh
that keeps me strong
to go on despite all that's wrong

You are the light
that makes me shine
The flower
that decorates my garden
The moon
that allows me to see through the dark
The new day
that rises from my everlasting nights
The rain
that washes all my nightmares away
The wind
that eases the pain

You are my strengh and weakness
My virtue and my sin
The best thing I've ever seen